Porcelain Doll
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feredarStory: Porcelain Doll
Year: 958 FY, 962 FY, 964 FY, 965 FY, 968 FY, 970 FY, 971 FY, 974 FY, 980 FY, 983 FY, 984 FY, 989 FY, 990 FY, 991 FY, 992 FY, 996 FY
Word Count: 1354
Rating: R
Characters: Princess Tana
Warnings: Parental death, one-sided incest, references to the nonviolent deaths of young children, violence, bullying, classism
Notes: A few details regarding King Sorell's grandchildren have changed since this was originally written. The only sections affected are #11 and #15. The original text, nonetheless, is left here.
7. Heirloom 958 FY
Tana is the eighth child and fifth daughter of King Sorell and his Queen, Nida. She comes two years after the death of the youngest of her three older brothers, and is near young enough to be her oldest sister's daughter--Deva is fifteen. She is pretty, with dark hair and bright blue eyes and a wicked little smile.
2. Antique lace 962 FY
Of all her sisters, Tana's closest to Mada. It's almost like there's a big gap between the Big Girls and the two of them (Rela's barely even alive yet), defined by the boys.
So it's Mada who teaches her how to play dress-up and balance in high heels and put everything back carefully away so no one will notice when they accidentally rip stuff.
6. Grandparents' attic 964 FY
Tana hates visiting Mamma's parents. They're boring and stuffy and everyone knows Mamma's oldest sister was a traitor.
But Mada and Rela are sick, so Mamma and Daddy decided she should come stay here for a few days, so she doesn't catch whatever it is.
Tana kicks sulkily at the trunk in the corner, wishing she were anywhere but there.
9. Hatbox 964 FY
When Tana gets home, when Mamma and Daddy think it's safe for her, she slowly picks her way through Mada's things.
She comes to the pretty blue hat, with the flowers made of lace all around it. It was always Mada's favorite, the one thing Tana was never allowed to try and borrow.
She stares at it for a minute, then puts it on, letting it slide down over her eyes.
4. Musty 965 FY
Keta likes to explore that palace archives. She tried to interest Tana in their nation's history--trying to get closer to her, maybe, even bringing her down one night for some just-the-two-of-us sister bonding time, but Tana took one look at the huge seemingly-disorganized shelves of scrolls and walked out.
Keta doesn't try to spend time with her so much anymore.
14. Hand crank 968 FY
Tana has a music box that she likes to play.
She especially likes to hide it in the nursery, and sneak in to start playing it when Andrell's trying to sleep.
20. They don't make them like this anymore. 970 FY
Tana's eyes shine as she watches Kellom in his brand-new uniform. He's so perfect that it's all she can do to keep her face decorous.
She can't help but compare him to Mellir and her sisters’ husbands--all weak, whining, sulky children next to him. Andrell, of course, is only five so he's allowed to be weak for now. But she's proud--proud and delirious with joy--to know that Kellom is her brother and will one day be the greatest king her nation’s ever known.
No offense to Daddy.
Kellom flashes a smile at her, and her heart soars.
17. Someone should have used this a long time ago. 971 FY
Andrell is the one who shows her the secret passage, all dusty and cobwebby and clearly unexplored for centuries. She's not interested in getting all dirty trying to see where all the little side passages lead, the way he is, but she does make careful note of the way it leads out to just beyond the palace walls.
Who knows? Someday she may want to mingle with the unwashed masses. It'd make for good stories to tell her friends.
11. Glass bottle left lying around 974 FY
Tana is really hopelessly bored with most of the boys who try to court her. Fortunately, with five surviving older siblings and one baby brother--and her sisters married, and Sola already with children--Mamma and Daddy aren't really pushing her too hard to choose one.
They all feel like little dusty pieces of glass--maybe there's something worthwhile and shiny underneath, but it's not worth cleaning them off to find out.
3. Water spots 980 FY
It's raining, the morning of her mother's funeral, and Tana doesn't know quite how to feel. She's never been close to Mother, not the way Deva and Andrell were, but it feels like there's a piece missing from the world and all the rain in the world doesn't come close to filling it.
16. Old paper photograph 980 FY
Tana is surprised when, going through Mother's things, she finds little portraits of all of them, most done when they were around six.
There's Deva, with her serious eyes; Sola, smiling like she knows nothing else; Keta who's looking away from the painter; Kellom in all his magnificence; Mellir looking very shifty; Mada with her sweet smile; her own bright blue eyes; Andrell's soft ones.
There are two baby pictures--one identified as Rela, and one she can't, for the life of her, recognize, until she realizes--this must be Nellid's face, with the white lips and softly closed eyes.
19. It's falling apart 983 FY
Tana watches with a certain amount of glee as Fera fades more and more into the shadowy corners of the palace, rarely leaving her apartments. She's been married to Kellom for four years now, and no hint of an heir, and no one likes her anyway. Kellom barely even visits his wife once a month, and never stays all night when he does.
Tana listens to the whispers, and adds her own, hoping to fuel the split between her beloved brother and the interloper so it'll never ever heal.
15. This was mine when I was young. 984 FY
Tana is very, very angry when one of her little nieces is wearing an old, lacy blue hat. It doesn't matter that it doesn't fit her anymore. Not one bit. She argues with Sola for a long time, and finally just takes it back while the little brat is sleeping.
She doesn't seem to miss it anyway.
8. Tarnish 989 FY
Even as the rest of the family falls to ruin or death or just plain hiding from the glory of the war, like Keta and Andrell have started doing, she watches Kellom stay strong and steady, a perfect champion, and knows that nothing in the whole entire universe can bring him down.
12. Abandoned building 989 FY
Tana watches Andrell flee the palace, fists clenched. He thinks no one knows what he's doing, no one knows he's a filthy little traitor, unworthy of being part of their family.
She almost goes to tell Kellom--Kellom always knows what to do--but that would be too good for Andrell. He'd die too quickly, the way Mellir had.
So Tana just watches, wishing she had a way to destroy him piece by piece until he really, truly, properly regretted even thinking of running away.
5. Sun faded 990 FY
The sun beats down on them.
Somehow, the stupid foreign freak-lovers have managed to breach the perimeter.
(It must be stupid Andrell's fault)
There are holes in the palace ceiling, and there's blood on all of Kellom's shirts, and somehow this isn't so much fun as it used to be.
13. Old uniform 990 FY
As she and Keta flee the palace, moments before it falls to the might of the invading freak-loving army, Tana makes sure to grab one of Kellom's old uniform shirts, from ages and ages ago. Fera might want it, but Tana doesn't give a damn. He's her brother, and she needs this piece of him as she goes into exile.
1. Rusty old hunk of junk 991 FY
Her footsteps echo as she wanders through the empty house in the mountains on the border with Heartwood. It's not a prison--not an official one, anyway, and Andrell--who she refuses to call 'king' when Kellom was--doesn't know she's here.
But there are bars on the windows, near rusted through, and the echoing, creaking silence of the hallways makes her want to scream and scream and scream.
18. I can't throw it away. 992 FY
The first time Kellom's shirt rips, Tana can't stop crying. She doesn't even have Mada's stupid hat anymore. This is all she has left of when everything in the world was perfect.
She carefully sews the tear back together, but it throws off the whole seam, and will never be the shirt Kellom used to wear again.
10. Porcelain doll 996 FY
Keta comes to see her sometimes. She's the only one who even bothers. Or maybe the only one who even knows. Tana doesn't really care. And she doesn't really talk to her much anyway.
She sits by the barred window, holding Kellom's old shirt (which is mostly fallen away to tatters now), wondering how the hell everything went so wrong when Kellom was so perfect.
Keta comes to see her sometimes, and Tana hates her for it. Because she knows Keta can see the cracks.
Year: 958 FY, 962 FY, 964 FY, 965 FY, 968 FY, 970 FY, 971 FY, 974 FY, 980 FY, 983 FY, 984 FY, 989 FY, 990 FY, 991 FY, 992 FY, 996 FY
Word Count: 1354
Rating: R
Characters: Princess Tana
Warnings: Parental death, one-sided incest, references to the nonviolent deaths of young children, violence, bullying, classism
Notes: A few details regarding King Sorell's grandchildren have changed since this was originally written. The only sections affected are #11 and #15. The original text, nonetheless, is left here.
7. Heirloom 958 FY
Tana is the eighth child and fifth daughter of King Sorell and his Queen, Nida. She comes two years after the death of the youngest of her three older brothers, and is near young enough to be her oldest sister's daughter--Deva is fifteen. She is pretty, with dark hair and bright blue eyes and a wicked little smile.
2. Antique lace 962 FY
Of all her sisters, Tana's closest to Mada. It's almost like there's a big gap between the Big Girls and the two of them (Rela's barely even alive yet), defined by the boys.
So it's Mada who teaches her how to play dress-up and balance in high heels and put everything back carefully away so no one will notice when they accidentally rip stuff.
6. Grandparents' attic 964 FY
Tana hates visiting Mamma's parents. They're boring and stuffy and everyone knows Mamma's oldest sister was a traitor.
But Mada and Rela are sick, so Mamma and Daddy decided she should come stay here for a few days, so she doesn't catch whatever it is.
Tana kicks sulkily at the trunk in the corner, wishing she were anywhere but there.
9. Hatbox 964 FY
When Tana gets home, when Mamma and Daddy think it's safe for her, she slowly picks her way through Mada's things.
She comes to the pretty blue hat, with the flowers made of lace all around it. It was always Mada's favorite, the one thing Tana was never allowed to try and borrow.
She stares at it for a minute, then puts it on, letting it slide down over her eyes.
4. Musty 965 FY
Keta likes to explore that palace archives. She tried to interest Tana in their nation's history--trying to get closer to her, maybe, even bringing her down one night for some just-the-two-of-us sister bonding time, but Tana took one look at the huge seemingly-disorganized shelves of scrolls and walked out.
Keta doesn't try to spend time with her so much anymore.
14. Hand crank 968 FY
Tana has a music box that she likes to play.
She especially likes to hide it in the nursery, and sneak in to start playing it when Andrell's trying to sleep.
20. They don't make them like this anymore. 970 FY
Tana's eyes shine as she watches Kellom in his brand-new uniform. He's so perfect that it's all she can do to keep her face decorous.
She can't help but compare him to Mellir and her sisters’ husbands--all weak, whining, sulky children next to him. Andrell, of course, is only five so he's allowed to be weak for now. But she's proud--proud and delirious with joy--to know that Kellom is her brother and will one day be the greatest king her nation’s ever known.
No offense to Daddy.
Kellom flashes a smile at her, and her heart soars.
17. Someone should have used this a long time ago. 971 FY
Andrell is the one who shows her the secret passage, all dusty and cobwebby and clearly unexplored for centuries. She's not interested in getting all dirty trying to see where all the little side passages lead, the way he is, but she does make careful note of the way it leads out to just beyond the palace walls.
Who knows? Someday she may want to mingle with the unwashed masses. It'd make for good stories to tell her friends.
11. Glass bottle left lying around 974 FY
Tana is really hopelessly bored with most of the boys who try to court her. Fortunately, with five surviving older siblings and one baby brother--and her sisters married, and Sola already with children--Mamma and Daddy aren't really pushing her too hard to choose one.
They all feel like little dusty pieces of glass--maybe there's something worthwhile and shiny underneath, but it's not worth cleaning them off to find out.
3. Water spots 980 FY
It's raining, the morning of her mother's funeral, and Tana doesn't know quite how to feel. She's never been close to Mother, not the way Deva and Andrell were, but it feels like there's a piece missing from the world and all the rain in the world doesn't come close to filling it.
16. Old paper photograph 980 FY
Tana is surprised when, going through Mother's things, she finds little portraits of all of them, most done when they were around six.
There's Deva, with her serious eyes; Sola, smiling like she knows nothing else; Keta who's looking away from the painter; Kellom in all his magnificence; Mellir looking very shifty; Mada with her sweet smile; her own bright blue eyes; Andrell's soft ones.
There are two baby pictures--one identified as Rela, and one she can't, for the life of her, recognize, until she realizes--this must be Nellid's face, with the white lips and softly closed eyes.
19. It's falling apart 983 FY
Tana watches with a certain amount of glee as Fera fades more and more into the shadowy corners of the palace, rarely leaving her apartments. She's been married to Kellom for four years now, and no hint of an heir, and no one likes her anyway. Kellom barely even visits his wife once a month, and never stays all night when he does.
Tana listens to the whispers, and adds her own, hoping to fuel the split between her beloved brother and the interloper so it'll never ever heal.
15. This was mine when I was young. 984 FY
Tana is very, very angry when one of her little nieces is wearing an old, lacy blue hat. It doesn't matter that it doesn't fit her anymore. Not one bit. She argues with Sola for a long time, and finally just takes it back while the little brat is sleeping.
She doesn't seem to miss it anyway.
8. Tarnish 989 FY
Even as the rest of the family falls to ruin or death or just plain hiding from the glory of the war, like Keta and Andrell have started doing, she watches Kellom stay strong and steady, a perfect champion, and knows that nothing in the whole entire universe can bring him down.
12. Abandoned building 989 FY
Tana watches Andrell flee the palace, fists clenched. He thinks no one knows what he's doing, no one knows he's a filthy little traitor, unworthy of being part of their family.
She almost goes to tell Kellom--Kellom always knows what to do--but that would be too good for Andrell. He'd die too quickly, the way Mellir had.
So Tana just watches, wishing she had a way to destroy him piece by piece until he really, truly, properly regretted even thinking of running away.
5. Sun faded 990 FY
The sun beats down on them.
Somehow, the stupid foreign freak-lovers have managed to breach the perimeter.
(It must be stupid Andrell's fault)
There are holes in the palace ceiling, and there's blood on all of Kellom's shirts, and somehow this isn't so much fun as it used to be.
13. Old uniform 990 FY
As she and Keta flee the palace, moments before it falls to the might of the invading freak-loving army, Tana makes sure to grab one of Kellom's old uniform shirts, from ages and ages ago. Fera might want it, but Tana doesn't give a damn. He's her brother, and she needs this piece of him as she goes into exile.
1. Rusty old hunk of junk 991 FY
Her footsteps echo as she wanders through the empty house in the mountains on the border with Heartwood. It's not a prison--not an official one, anyway, and Andrell--who she refuses to call 'king' when Kellom was--doesn't know she's here.
But there are bars on the windows, near rusted through, and the echoing, creaking silence of the hallways makes her want to scream and scream and scream.
18. I can't throw it away. 992 FY
The first time Kellom's shirt rips, Tana can't stop crying. She doesn't even have Mada's stupid hat anymore. This is all she has left of when everything in the world was perfect.
She carefully sews the tear back together, but it throws off the whole seam, and will never be the shirt Kellom used to wear again.
10. Porcelain doll 996 FY
Keta comes to see her sometimes. She's the only one who even bothers. Or maybe the only one who even knows. Tana doesn't really care. And she doesn't really talk to her much anyway.
She sits by the barred window, holding Kellom's old shirt (which is mostly fallen away to tatters now), wondering how the hell everything went so wrong when Kellom was so perfect.
Keta comes to see her sometimes, and Tana hates her for it. Because she knows Keta can see the cracks.